Being a mom is something I am deeply
passionate about. I think I’m pretty good at it and it shows in my children’s
character every day. I know I’m blessed, truly I do. I don’t usually share my
struggles because to be honest I don’t really have many and those that I do
aren’t big enough in my eyes to complain about or hold on to for long.
I wanted, however, to get
real today and share a bit of why I’ve been quiet on here (and Instagram) so
much. Being a mom again for a toddler is not without its challenges. Not long
ago, my two older girls were independent, our house was managed, and things ran
pretty well. Adding Isla has definitely changed things. I won’t say in a
negative way because despite the new added craziness Isla makes me consider
having one more (does that make me crazy? Probably).
Today I’m behind in
everything. My clean house is becoming harder to keep clean and if you knew me
well, you'd know this drives me nuts. My laundry is so full some days I literally have to climb on top of
it to get into the room. My bedroom has become a catch all, my closet too. Most
days I’m in pajamas hiding from the outside world because I haven’t had time to
wash my hair or let’s face it, even take a shower.
This year, I’ve finally taken the plunge and
started homeschooling Piper. I've wanted to do this for so long! Not because
Piper has problems at school or anything but because I love being around my
kids. Let me tell you, it’s been a real learning curve. I love it but I still
feel like I'm going at this blind. I'll report back at the end of the school
year to let you know if we will continue it. And in the mix Piper’s been
working through some frustrating (rebelling) middle child issues. I won't share
more on here because I don't want to embarrass her but I feel at a loss right
know. I know God will see us through this, I just have to be patient. I also
find comfort in knowing Chloie went through a phase like this when Piper was
Isla's age.
My adorable Isla is growing into a strong-willed
child. Oh, how I love her fierce determination but it never gives us rest. This
busy little bee never sits still unless she needs some cuddles. She's a climber
and challenges her skills daily. We are presently going through a sleep
regression like none other. She refuses nap time most days and will only sleep
in her room 2-3 hours (if I'm lucky) before she wakes up crying to be in ours.
Even as I type this at 12:30am, I am sitting in her room quietly waiting for
her to fall asleep. Her quiet sniffles just melt my heart. I know this
beautiful time; this age is fleeting. I try hard to remind myself of it daily.
I never want to take it for granite.
And can we take a minute
to say how adorable Isla looks on this rock?! She climbed up there and happily
sat still for me while I clicked away. She posed for about 30 minutes or
at least it felt like that. Seriously I considered dragging that rock home with
me. And in the photos where she is grabbing her stomach she was saying,
"Tickoo Tickoo!" Her way of saying tickle.
I stepped away from here and my Instagram (unintentionally
at first) for traveling and to work on home projects (like literally remodeling
our entire basement) as well as giving my family more of my time. It’s
refreshing to step away. Giving up that nagging need to check in or post is
liberating but I do miss tinkering with photos and seeing what’s going
on.
So, while I’m late with your replies and I’ve
given so many excuses, the truth is, I’m still trying to catch my breath. In my
head I’m totally convinced, I’m almost caught up. Tomorrow I can find a moment.
Tomorrow I’ll be able to get ahead (and maybe I will) but most days I don’t and
when I do, I usually choose to clean a corner of my home or am too tired to do
anything more than Netflix. And while I share these completely trivial
struggles, I don't want to come off as if I'm complaining. I'm just updating you, the reader, with my whys. I keep an optimistic outlook. I try to make time for those who've
befriend me and keep our little adventures going. I wouldn’t change my
little corner of chaos for anything in the world. Anyhoo, thanks for listening to the
rambles of an over sharing exhausted mom, at now 3:41 in the morning...
P.S. These photos are from September. I have
photos as far back as July that I'd love to share. So, if time
allows, I might try to wiggle them in here and there when I find a quiet
moment.
Take Care & Enjoy,
Heather
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