It has occurred to me that I am quite possibly mad. Wildly mad! After taking this last set of photos and going over them, I find myself asking why on earth am I doing this!?! I am the person who hides away from unexpected visitors when I'm undressed or more importantly, when I'm not wearing makeup. Only the tiniest circle of people ever see me so... naked.
This latest set of photos is certainly more raw. I chose a better lit place in my home and well it captured me, at my truest self. I'm not a young lass anymore and although my youth isn't completely gone I'm not the beauty that all the other bloggers are. A rough reality I deal with in strides. I am perhaps too hard on myself, as my husband often reminds me but I suppose we all have our vices.
Today officially marks 10 days that I have been taking Accutane. The first few days I did feel off. I'm not sure how else to describe it than perhaps feeling anxious. Then again when it comes to my health and taking pills I can get a bit nervous. After a few days that off feeling has faded some. I was told that my skin would be more sensitive to scratches and that it would be worse before better. That couldn't be more true. The slightest thing does cause my skin to peel. Even washing my face is a cautious task that requires a gentle touch. What's worse is I cant exfoliate at all! It's forbidden as it can damage your epidermis. *sigh* I love exfoliating. But I suppose 6 months isn't that long. As for the worse before better, I had hoped I would be that magical small percentile that doesn't experience worse breakouts...haha I was sorely mistaken! My skin around day 5 started to break out like crazy all over! My breakouts usually were the type that never reached the surface. This medicine is pushing everything forward. The plus side, they are healing much quicker than they ever have before. As for any other side affects, I'm not depressed. I'm too happy a person anyhoo. I am however experiencing mild dry lips and very dry eyes. I may be sticking mostly to glasses for the next few months. Other than that things are going good.
Hope I haven't scared any of my viewers away! LOL!
Take Care,
♥ Heather
Thank you for being so honest! I know as a blogger it can be scary as we want to show the best of ourselves! Im glad that the depression hasn't effected you, Im sure everyone has different side effects anyhow. Im sure you'll be happy in the end though!
ReplyDeleteJustine
http://theredlipchronicles.blogspot.com
Thank you for stopping by and commenting! It's hard sharing this and even more so when no one replies. Each day on this medication is better than the last. I think I'll see great results *fingers crossed*
DeleteI found your blog through a comment you left on shelovesdresses.com, and I'm really glad I did. It takes some real guts to do a post like this, and I think it's pretty incredible how vulnerable you're making yourself. You are really beautiful, with or without your makeup, whatever's going on with your skin. Good luck with the Accutane, I hope it does what you'd like it to do.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for stopping by and for taking the time to comment! It still shocks myself that I'm sharing such a personal side of me but it's something I truly hope might help others who are suffering with acne and perhaps show that we aren't all perfect. I'm about to do another post soon with another update. There has been a small amount of progress but I'm still a ways from the wow factor. Thank you again for your sweet words Jessica, they mean so much!♥
Delete